It is so very difficult to explain how much I miss Emily, considering she never really had a presence in our day to day lives. Every single thing we do wherever we are, it feels like someone is missing; a very special someone.
Every Thursday is rerun of losing Emily, no matter what I try to do on a Thursday, I can't help but think about December 19th 2013.
As I write this, I know at this time we were getting changed ready for the delivery. We already knew that our little girl was dead, the only thing left to look forward to was seeing Michelle out of pain and being able to take a look at our little girl for the first time, and start the journey of what might have been.