After being a father, Forever Stars I think is going to be one of the most rewarding experiences of my life, meeting so many generous people just inspires you to carry on with, even when you feel so down, you just want to hibernate.
I had the pleasure of meeting the CEO of Nottingham Arena this week, I have had the pleasure of Geoff's company in the past but his kind words and generous offer of support, really sums up how people are being with us. Even today, I had yet another text from Lynda Lally of Beeston Tesco asking me to bring the car upstairs; a code I am now more than familiar with, as I know it means more great raffles prizes etc!!
At lunch the lovely Hannah popped over to the office, to drop off some fabulous looking prizes for the raffle (I really want to win some of the tiffin!), unfortunately she came round at the same time Michelle & I had just had a little over the phone meltdown, it happens every now and again; you can't be full on all the time looking after your family, running a business and a charity without the occasional tear - today was no exception!!
Talking of tears, we had to consider the possibility of using Emily's room for something other than thinking of Emily. It may sound odd to people but we still have her nursery ready for her arrival, car seat, mosses basket, cot, toys, clothes, nappies - you name it, we have it ready for our little girl. On the day of Emily's funeral we brought Emily home to spend time with us, Michelle and I just sat with her in her room. The most unnatural moment in a parents life, seeing their baby in a coffin, has become one of the most treasured moments in ours.
It is with that in mind, that the thought of dismantling the room and removing the physical reminders that our little girl ever came home, where she belongs, just releases those feelings of despair all over again, I know the day is coming when we have to take that next step but not just yet...